Yan's Labyrinth

She's always been a bit of a dreamer...    half way here...         half way there... Making her way along the paths only traveled by the ones that they call different or special... The way she speaks speckled with nuances and meanings that are all her own      ...it confuses the masses but is understood by a few that she considers her own.. I've seen her smile and nod and engage in humorous banter so convincingly that she feels genuinely present... You would never guess she's dreaming.       Her eyes are changeable and hide as much as they convey...              always travelling...                   always far away. I've seen her cry. Wretched silent tears that demonstrate her pain only by the heaving of her chest.    ...

Lesson #1. Put no one on a pedestal... Not even yourself. We are all fragile entities called humans and one day we will fuck up. Lesson #2. You will get your heart broken. And if you don't then you need to. The heart needs to know loss and disappointment in order to heal and strengthen itself. Most importantly, it needs to prepare itself for the one who deserves you most. Lesson #3. Your fears are little gifts wrapped up in scary packaging. They are there to teach us that we are capable of truly doing anything. Lesson #4. Stress is a killer. Whatever you do, don't let it get to you. Scream, laugh, cry, talk about it or dance! But whatever you do... Don't stress about it. Lesson #5 If you're not enjoying sex.... Then you're not doing right. Lesson #6. Laugh as much as possible. And then laugh some more. Lesson #7. Dance. Who cares if you have no rhythm... Just dance dammit. Lesson #8. Allow music to move you. Allow it to enter your core and sway you...

Things, situations, opportunities, circumstances, jobs, people will come and go... Some will impact you... Some will leave a bitter taste in your mouth, some will leave you with lessons... Memories...like puffs of smoke that linger in the recesses of your mind. Some will become a permanent fixture, never leaving...even if it appears they have. And some you will cherish forever...simply because of the impact they have had. At the end of the day however, you are left with just you. Surrounded by bits and pieces of varied experiences. But it's yourself that you are left with...just you....and nothing else. So remember that while it's nice to appreciate all these different things that have contributed to who you are... Never forget the importance of 'you'. Love yourself so much, that no one or no 'thing' can cause you to lose the value of yourself... The value of 'you'. You're not expected to have all the answers. You're not expected to be perf...